Room #1264

We left ICU. We are in the beautiful and well natural lit room #1264 on the oncology floor and there is peace here. We have learned in our journey that of all the nurses on the planet, oncology nurses are the BEST. They have given us a room with a beautiful view of Elliott Bay and we just finished giving Chris a final bath and washed his beautiful hair. We changed his clothes, got him in some loose fitting shorts and have him sitting up and he is struggling to keep his eyes open. His breathing is irregular and labored but his oxygen saturation is still in the high 80's when the nurse discreetly checked for us so he is strong, with no ventilator and pneumonia he is still strong. We came to this room as a family of four but we will leave as a family of three and we all know it and the depth of the knowledge is crushing. But this is where we are and I am honored and privileged to call this man my husband, I proudly wear his ring and no matter what I will carry him through this. The kids are right here with us. On May 15th we started a family journey, total disclosure at all times. The journey is drawing to a close, total disclosure at all times and as a family still. God bless our precious Chris, there are no words for how much we love him and this hurts in wordless depths we have not before known.